Hey guys, I have just about made it all the way back to sanity and it saddens me deeply to see the main forum here, filling up daily with people in such deep despair. Even our Admin is suffering today. Guys I wish I could say one magical word that would make it better for everyone, but I am convinced beyond any shadow of a doubt that people who want to kill themselves are suffering from a mental illness of some kind. You can't be sane (im my humble opinion) and want to die. The instinct to live is too overpowering for a sane mind. And so it is that we find ourselves in this terrible mental dispair. Not knowing what to do, except for the obvious, not wanting to live, maybe not wanting to die, but definately wanting the pain to end. I am a full believer in better living thru chemicals. Now I know that a lot of you have either been on or are currently on meds to help get your mind straight. These meds are powerful stuff and sometimes they require an adjustment. Perhaps you have never taken meds before or sought out help. LISTEN TO ME NOW, ALL OF YOU!!!!!! Help is there, just waiting for you, if you will only let help in!!!!! How to get help? Well it all depends on what level of severity your illness has progressed. Maybe it's enough to talk to a minister or rabbi. However if you are actively suicidal then you need IMMEDIATE HELP!!!! Here's how to get that help; Go to the local hospital er, or...if you can't make it down there, call 911. IN EITHER CASE, YOU NEED TO TELL THEM YOU ARE ACUTELY SUICIDAL. You need to use the word ACUTELY. That will let them know you are serious. Screw it. Dont have health insurance, screw it. Worried about the cost of the ride in the ambulance, screw it. Don't want to spend a week in the pysch ward? SCREW IT. Already been to treatment or the Psych ward? SCREW IT, Go back, again and again and again...as many times as it takes! WE ARE TALKING ABOUT YOUR LIFE HERE. And not just your life, but the lives of all of those you will damage if you die. Your friends, your family, your coworkers. Damn it people, there is help out there, grab it, take it, run with it. And please, remember :love: all of you!