Hi. not sure what to start with. simply, i am having recurring and increasing frequency of suicidal thoughts. i have had these a number of times before in my life but the last two weeks plus they are gaining ground on the shreds of rationality left up there. if i have inadvertently wandered on to a site that is simply a device to lure vulnerable people to some organised religion, let me know and i shall leave... hastily. the reasons for my slide into this depression are simple and unoriginal. i used to stop myself from doing anything drastic as i didn't want to upset those around me, i am caring far less about anyone now and so the brakes are being released. due to my own incompetence i gave up a life that i had created overseas. a life that was everything i wanted. i walked away from it 6 years ago and i have not stopped regretting it since. lots of hate, mainly towards myself. thanks for any suggestions.