I am 24, I grew up going to a christian school with 2 other boys in my class, one was my best friend david, we were inseperable. We knew eachother our whole lives until our parents couldnt afford to keep sending us there, so the first year we hit public school he died in a car wreck, and I helped cause it. I was so jealous of him for many things I lied and didnt give him a ride to a party because we liked the same girl. One year later my grandma killed herself, my mom kinda went nuts, soon after I caught rheumatic fever and almost died (sadly i didnt) and ever since I have been sick. My immune system is backwards. I found out I have interstitial cystitis, a disease you dont find in men, its so rare its nearly impossible for men to get, so no doctors can help me. It hurts to pee, have sex, get hard, deficate, sit, its a bladder and prostate disease that causes extreme pain in both organs and the testicles and penis. Ive had many operations and surgeries, non helped. I have beaten an extreme addiction with oxycodone, but I still have to take percocet which doesnt help much now that my tolerance level is so messed up. I also have fibromyalgia, bipolar, and rhuematoid arthritis. Im 24, and I feel 60, I am so tired of all of this. I have nothing to look foward to except for more pain, pissing myself more often, a failing body, more immune system disfunctions, and testicular or prostate cancer. Thats not even a third of my story, im already tired of telling it. -david.