This is very hard to do. I'm so shy it's almost painful to even write this. I've spent the last 6 weeks in a daily battle with depression and suicidal thoughts. One night I went as far as trying to hurt myself. I'm all alone in the world and am desperately trying to find something to hold onto. 6 weeks ago I lost my entire family, my husbands in jail and my 3 kids were taken from me by the CAS. My future looks very bleak and I'm so messed up I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to seek help because then I'd never get to see my kids again. I really need a friend that I can talk to because in my real life I have no one.