Am i feeling suicidel : NO what im feeling is way beyond that now. Hopeless, worthless, a pain in many peoples butt, useless...but most of all just very very ...sad. Im sad that i wont ever get to see how the human race can rise above what they are now....sad that i wont ever have anyone to hold me again or even hug me ...sad that i wont ever get to go outside and enjoy a truly awsome gift...nature..but mostly im sad because i love people..mostly.. and love to help others but all i can do is mess em up. Seems thats one thing i have always been really good at!!! Hey who knew??? If i had known what i would do i would have ended this life long long ago but i always had some kind or form of hope. Sure i had some good times but i had to really work at em. ALWAYS had to work at em. Im not going to work at em anymore... ever!!! One reason is im really more screwed up than i thought i was or am . I never ever meant anyone any harm or hurt. Sorry if you happened to be in my sights or that you seemed to tug on my heart strings!!! I thought that islolating myself from people would keep me from being abused or hurt again. LIke all things we humans are very good at improvising!! So i came here and to some other sites. It is all the same though... being here around people here in cyber world.. or being around people in the real world same same. Im sorry that for some reason i thought it really was different!!
MY bad lol . (and i hate that damed phrase
. So ....now what?? Dont really matter i might drop in to chat for a bit just to see ..or maybe not!! Seems best i think now. To coin a phrase..."chat room" is for light topics! So if i seem to be dramatic or just a "troll"...(which i like by the way) i will keep it light. I wont tell you that in the not to distant future i will never ever be a problem or hurt anyone ever again....ever. So be cool take care and i love ya...
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MY bad lol . (and i hate that damed phrase
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