That's exactly what I feel like right now. I'm almost 5 months clean from heroin, but I've been wanting it so badly ever since my ex-fiancé and I broke up. And it's becoming so bad that I'm actually considering offering random dudes sex if they can get me some dope. Now if that's not completely pathetic, I don't know what is. I don't even care that I've managed to stay clean that long. I don't care about the repercussions. I. Just. Want. Dope. Period. And these thoughts don't seem to be going away.