I'm tired, exhuasted, overwhelmed, angry. I'm sick of trying, sick of fighting, sick of it all. I just want to rest in my bed, have a good life, be a normal kid, be free of medication, free of therapy. Free of constant battling for control of my own brain. Free of unhealthy urges, cravings and habits. I just want to be look a friend in the eye, and say "I'm ok", without lying. I want to have a conversation without being socially awkward. I want to be able to relate to people around me, be accepted. I want to be a normal 16 year old boy.