Before anyone reads this and has a go at me, please understand that you do not know the circumstances, and before asking me to explain them, understand that I can't. This is not something I would normally say, but this is not an normal internet situation. And also note: This is not about anyone on this forum (or more accurately this is not knowingly about someone on this forum). You go to the doctors because you are craving help, care and attention. Yet, when they offer you that help, you run away. Why? Because you don't want to lose that attention. You don't understand that you won't get better instantly or anything like that. You run to him so regularly with SI, despite the fact that they have told you that they won't treat you for those things, yet he does. What makes you so special? You run to him after every tiny thing that you do. You told me you never cut into fat, and yet you still go. Why is it so hard to deal with it yourself? At home? Just a bit of dressing, bandage, maybe steristrips, not hard. I cut into fucking tendon and NEVER go. I have lost movement in my arm, yet NEVER go. I went when I first started, I got scared by what I did, but you have been doing it for ages. You need to stop running to him. Actually, you don't, that in itself doesn't really matter. But keep posting. I use you for emotional abuse. I deliberately seek you out and talk to you to remind myself how worthless I am. And you know why I do that, yet you STILL rub it in my face. You are GREAT at making me feel worthless, so well done. You remind me that you are worth helping, you deserve all the support, and I in turn deserve nothing. Because that is what has happened, hasn't it. That doctor has given you everything. You know that, yet you refuse it. Why not allow someone who WANTS to get better to do those things. Mind you, if you didn't want it, they wouldn't give it to someone else, because you are so damn fucking special. You are a bloody grown woman, now get a fucking grip. Like I always told you people on here, I am nasty. But you don't know what this situation is so please don't have a go at me, just know that I already know I am nasty.