I've been suicidal ever since middle school. I've never actually tried to kill myself, but the thoughts have never gone away. As I write this, I'm too apathetic to even explain why I hate my life. That's unimportant anyway. I've been waiting for things to change in my life since middle school, and even in college it's all the same. I've got a fantastic GPA, and am on my way to getting into medical school and doing awesome things with my life... But I'm not happy. I haven't been in the longest time. Nothing has changed in these last 7-8 years, and I'm pretty much screwed for life in that regard.