No one is interested or even cares. Their only interaction is a dismissive scowl because you are unable to break free from the overwhelming weight of despair. There is no apparent reason for the lack of a smile but how do you explain what it is like to be held prisoner in the invisible dark when others have natural light - with no effort it seems, it is just there. The veil is suffocating and restricting and maddening. It is not wanted but it is just there. And it gets in everywhere. Those in the sun just laugh and move on and say you are weak and pathetic because you cannot break free - despite your intelligence and every ounce of your being wanting to feel the warm sun on your face Take a pill, live in the moment, be grateful, life is too short, pull yourself together .....this echoes and rings and clangs in my ears as I madly clutch at the last light disappearing down into the choking sludge. The veil is too heavy, I cannot lift it alone. And I stand, unable to move although wanting more thank anything to do so........and start to sink as the sunshine people laugh and play and walk away because you are too much effort and a revolting stain on their fun. No one talks to you or asks how you are unless you happily smile (as the flame within dies) As long as the mask is there - it does not matter that the flame has gone. No body cares. No one has the time. Just do your job. Your are just too needy! You are dismissed!