I guess ill start by introducing myself. My names Jesse XXXX, From Alberta, Canada. I myself, have been in the same spot as many of you, and with saying that, i beg you, beg you from the core of my soul. Take the time to read this. I know its hard, believe me, i know its hard, Ive posted on the crisis forums more then twice, i've contacted the suicide hotline many, many times. Ive been to the hospital over self harm, and attempts. I was in the exact same situation you are. Until i sat down, and i thought, and i mean actually thought, about life, who i am, who i have around me, what i want to become, what were my childhood dreams. And thats all i ask, from anyone wanting the same thing i used to want. Is sit down, and just really think, think about your friends who love you. When i went through my best friend had just moved to japan, and i thought about her, and called her, and just hearing her voice provided comfort. No matter how bad the situation is, there IS somebody that loves you, more then you can imagine, even if you dont know it, I mean, look at this forum, some of the most inspirational people i have ever talked to in my life, post on this forum. And we all love you, every single one of you, we know what your going through, and we are here for you, we want you to know there are things to live for. I guess you might want to know why im making this post. Well, its because after much deliberation i decided to give it just one more shot. Give life one more shot. i wrote down all my childhood dreams, and the schools i could attend to get there, and then narrowed the list by what was most attainable, i then started applying to schools, and got a new job, and decided its time to meet new people. I started cutting all the people out of my life who were negative, who told me i couldn't, who told me i was fat, or stupid, or lazy, anything seriously negative, i took them out of my life. And i started acting positively, and i met positive people, i met people with goals, with ambitions, who knew what they wanted from life. And then i met the girl of my dreams, everything i could ever ask for. All because i sat down, and i thought seriously about life, and i gave it one more shot. Thats all i ask, of everyone posting, that wants to attempt suicide. Is please, Just know we all love you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE in your pain, We have all been there, YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT, I promise you, you can do anything, you can do absoutly anything you ever wanted to, As a child, you wanted to become a fire fighter, that is 100% possible, all you need to do is give life one more shot, and shoot for the stars. Become everything you ever wanted too. Its all possible, just give life one more shot. talk to us here, let us know how your doing. How your dreams are commign along. That's all i ask. I thank you so much for reading this, And remember, you are loved. No matter what you think, You. Are. Loved. If you need to talk more, or would like to talk more, PLEASE PM Me!!