Ok, HOW do I stop this repeating entry in my mind? Sui thoughts, over and over. Deaths, over and over. Seems negativity is ever present. I'd like and want to do something positive, but I keep coming back to this place. I feel adrift, lost more so. Scared of the unknown, the thought of whatever is a future, how to manage. Over and over. This same storyline. A roundabout. A Ferris wheel. Never ending, but I want an end. An out. I'm scared, though.