It has been a while since I last made a thread... I am actually kind of surprised. Anyway last night is either the first time ever or in a long time, that I have had a suicide dream. It played out just as I had always envisioned it happening. It was so vivid so nice. Oddly enough there was someone trying to save me during the dream. I kept fighting them off. Sadly my alarm went off before I got to the end. I think I was close to death in it. It was a wonderful dream. I hope I have one again tonight. Maybe during my dream I will fall off my bed and break my neck. That would be wonderful, dying in my sleep because I had a suicide dream... which makes me wonder if that is suicide at all? All I know is I have been extra suicidal today. Not to mention extra unmotivated... and at times... agitated.... it has just been a crappy day.