A Temp. Solution?

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by DS, Dec 26, 2009.

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  1. DS

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    is it when it hurts so very much
    and no matter how you try or what you do, you can't make it stop, can't ease it...
    and more than anything you have to have some relief/release
    you need to make it go away even for just a moment
    and there is a mounting heavy pressure
    sometimes turning to panic but not a panic attack a different kind of panic
    and sometimes a need for escape

    and u can't take it any more...

    and you could either die or maybe do something to ease the pain...doesn't matter which

    is this where self harm becomes an acceptable option?

    is this when it becomes appropriate?
    please excuse my ignorance i am desperate and in unfamiliar territory
  2. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    It's just a calm down technique for me.

    Blood is pretty and bleeding is soothing as weird as that sounds. Something about endorphins.

    A very shitty one that has left me with permanent scars that look just oh so great...

    I don't think it should ever be an acceptable option, and it's not something ANYONE should turn to.
  3. DS

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    i don't know what else to do to get a bit of relief
    the panic doesn't help

    i'm not a cutter but am finding myself doing things i shouldn't
    even that isnt' helping
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  4. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    It does give you some relief, but you'll regret it later.

    No more shorts, no more short sleeves.

    And it's like alcohol, you need more as you grow tolerant to it. Deeper and deeper, until you cannot stop the bleeding and you have to get stitches. A most embarrassing situation.

    If you need to talk about it my pm box is open and contact info is in the profile, aim and msn.
  5. DS

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    but it's less dangerous than current manner of handling things and i have no clue how else to cope
  6. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Have you tried the rubber band method?

    What is it that you're doing that's more dangerous? SH is SH whether you're cutting or not.
  7. DS

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    i can't write what i am doing on the forum...i think there are rules about that.
  8. DS

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    need to find safer coping methods.
    this is not working out.
    this is playing a dangerous game with my body.

    it allows for momentary relief from the panic/shaking/fear
    until the regret hits hard.

    coming so close to that line...knowing how easy it is to cross it...balancing act. maybe i am just hoping i will cross it. cutting would definitely be a bit less dangerous.

    but as i sit here again with the shaking, staring at another on my desk...it's rather hard to resist knowing i may get momentary relief ... just a bit scary as i've done this already today and don't know how well my body will handle it...chest pain earlier....but iits too much and i just need a bit of relief


    I don't know what else to do.
    i don't have the tools for this.
    only this...and it's just not a safe thing.

    still feel sick from earlier.
  9. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Have you tried hobbies?
  10. DS

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    i told myself no more today.
    but i can't do it.

    it's the only relief i've found

    i am sooo going to regret this.
  11. cult logic

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    I've probably caught you too late but you should stop and think about.

    You know you'll regret it, so try and resist!
  12. DS

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    uh oh

    so stugpid

    i've lostcount snad swore ia wounldn'

    pros; helps with sahkingetc
    givews control
    conss ; hpictursse in head ughc could do swithout

    reaaaaallly reallllsy tmeping. no congatrol. put in oghter room but really really want to finish.

  13. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    You really shouldn't be doing this. :sad:

    Please get some help!
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