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A very curious turn-on

Discussion in 'Family, Friends and Relationships' started by aoeu, Nov 7, 2008.

  1. aoeu

    aoeu Well-Known Member

    **POTENTIAL TRIGGER** [I'm unsure]

    I'm generally of the opinion that any aspect of sexuality is more-or-less normal, if deviated, but I've come upon a strange turn-on.


    I read about torture and execution on Wikipedia from time to time, a basic morbid curiousity I think we all share, but... the strange part is that I become aroused. Erection. I'm just a step shy of masturbating to an Iron Maiden...

    I don't know what I'm asking, I'm not sure what I'm saying... It's just really, really weird.
  2. jam1e

    jam1e Guest

    No offence but, but i think you may need to speak to a councillor!
  3. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Do other things of the sort turn you on? Like sadistic porn or anything like that? Because I would imagine when sadistic porn isn't enough anymore, watching someone die would be the next step.
    You're not a bad person for this turning you on, but it is something that requires attention, so that you don't end up acting on something someday, unless you are certain it is something that is only a fantasy. Either way, it does show that you need healing and someone to help you figure out why this turns you on.
    Some people on this forum would argue people can't help what turns them on but I 110% disagree. I am glad you shared this with us because it shows you are not denying that it turns you on, but it would be helpful for you to have someone figure out why it does.
    much love :heart:
  4. A_pixie

    A_pixie Well-Known Member

    What kind of execution if you don't mind me asking because you could actually be turned on about people being tied up, which in kinda common.
  5. DrowningInTears

    DrowningInTears Well-Known Member

    Every sick fetish has been done. There are whole genres out there committed to rape, torture, murder, mutilation, amputation, etc. I'm sorry this has happened to you, I know you must be frightened and confused. Is this just something that caught your interest for the moment, or are you really getting into it in a big way?
  6. aoeu

    aoeu Well-Known Member

    Sadism is one of my favourites, but usually [actually, always up until now] consensual and for the fucked up stuff, fake. Any sort of execution works, but the gorier, the better.

    I'm not really getting into it as I have with other things, but I do like reading about executions and tortures as a sick pleasure... it just happens to turn me on, now.

    I don't think I would have a problem with this if I was reading FICTION, instead of fact. I rather like the torture scene in Reservoir Dogs, but that's completely fake so it doesn't bother me.

    Amputation is one of my more recent fantasies, but I'm going into prosthetics and my pseudo-girlfriend wants to be a cyborg... That all works together so well!

    As for why, I always get back to Freud. The id wants aggression and sex. Rape is the ultimate expression of the id. Fortunately, there's the superego opposing the id, and mine is overactive.

    Honestly, I don't suppose I would act on this. I've never been violent towards anyone [well, not without consent :) ] and so I don't think any therapist would care.
  7. DrowningInTears

    DrowningInTears Well-Known Member

    You seem to me to be a caring person and I think you are a good guy. I really hope people won't be ignorant and think you are a bad person, which is so typical when people open up. Sadly even on a site like this some people won't understand you.
  8. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Have you checked out 'snuff films' aoeu?
  9. Reki

    Reki Well-Known Member

    There's nothing wrong with it, it's just uncommon. As long as you don't go all Ted Bundy on everyone I say more power to you, what turns you on is your business.
  10. DrowningInTears

    DrowningInTears Well-Known Member

    Please tell me your not talking about the thing where they crush kittens and small animals that really breaks my heart.
  11. Reki

    Reki Well-Known Member

    They do pretty much the same thing, just to people instead of kittens.
  12. A_pixie

    A_pixie Well-Known Member

  13. aoeu

    aoeu Well-Known Member

    Oh, and this thread helped a whole bunch. A pretty girl with similar turn-ons PMed me :)