I have exactly everything I need to kill myself right now. The only part I haven't figured out is where I would go to die. I can't do it here. This plan is flawless. Even in the event of being found the damage will have already been done and it will be irreversible. The drugs won't be in my stomach so they can't be pumped out. They will be in my blood and in my cells in too great a dosage to be compensated for. The failure of multiple organ systems will be too much, even for the most skilled physicians, to fix. And in all likelyhood it shouldn't take more than half an hour to die so the odds that I'll even make it to a hospital alive are going to be slim to begin with, provided I choose a secluded enough location. I'm not sure if or when I will actually go through with it. It's already starting to seem like a bad idea now that I'm waking up but I don't know how I'll feel by the time the sun goes down. I see it as only a matter of time.