Well, since I am all upset now, I imagine I can't get much more upset than I already am. So, I will explain why I am upset about this. As a child growing up, living with my father, who was a right-wing Conservative Fundamentalist Christian cop, dealing with his extreme raging temper every day of my life living with him during the years 1988-1993, I know about the conditions of Christianity as I have been very hurt by it, mainly due to the abuse done to me by my father. Listening to him cursing at me, threatening me, shouting at me saying that if I didn't do so and so, that god was going to punish me to hell for eternity. None of the Christian family around him and I did anything to stop him from what he was doing to me. They did nothing to protect me from the abuse. I didn't escape from this situation, until my mother who had been divorced from my father since 1984, took me away from him to live with her in 1993. Anyways, because of this situation, realizing how it has hurt me, and how it could have been stopped sooner had Christians not turned a blind eye to this, I have become bitter toward Christianity. The mention that after all of this, Jesus still loves me is a matter of interpretation better not discussed here on the suicide forum. Reading about Christianity here has caused me a great amount of stress due to flashbacks of my past being brought forth in my mind. I suppose this is what God wanted or something.