A week on

[GoldenPsych]

Well I have spoke to 2 different counsellors in the past week and they were both quite annoyed at the treatment I was given in hospital... not speaking to anyone from DPM. Any hoo, after a phone call from a counsellor to the hospotal I got a phone call 5 mins later offering me an appointment for next week .Don't know who it is with or what it will do really.

This last week I have been feeling so low, I can't cry though. The only thing I cried at was a girlie film. I feel numb to my own feelings. I haven't cut again and I have not taken any pills this week. Not that I haven't wanted to though. I am struggling to hang on. Suppose I sort of feel a magic wand will be waved when I go for the appointment although realistically I know that wont happen. I just hope I dont feel 10x worse after! Well I spose I will have to wait and see really!

 

[Dave_N]

At least you haven't been cutting or taking pills. That's a good sign.

 

[GoldenPsych]

Jst hope that when I see someone it doesnt bring things to surface again to make me feel bad!

 

[Petal]

hang in there hun :hug:

 

[LILICHIPIE]

hello there

im so sorry you feel in deep despair; i feel for you
but yeah; i dont think you should have dropped the pills
you should be trying to go on
i think that your depression has worsenned because of despair pain dropping pills and not knowing where you are going
Despair and pain will take long time to deal with until u find the right therapist but hang on as much as u can
not jnowing where u go is normal as you havent found the right shrink; as you dont know till how this pain is gonna take u and how much it will damage you
dropping pills:::::::::: well u can still hang on on pills unless it harms u really bad to a psychosis; pills are chemical drugs it does affect ur brain but until u have psychosis and dreadful death thoughts to end it all at any moment it can maybe help you

you have to take care of yourself; your worth it; if u eventually comfort in not doing nothing waiting drropping treatement it might lead you to suicide
and you probably dont want the act just the pain to go away
so hang on the best u can and keep having this strenght about shrinks if they can help u - they havent for me but thats different mental issues

take care