Yesterday I felt really suicidal, but my parents were on to me and it was late at night and my dad forced me to stay in my room, and there's nothing in there except small razer blades. 6 months ago or so I cut my wrist quite bad...spent ages in a psychiatric ward etc etc. I've really wanted to kill myself for months now but turns out I'm just really shit at it (lack the will(courage/lack of courage , whatever) ... yet last night I thought out of nowhere about <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>..which confused me becus I mainly havent done anything becus of lack of efficiency and the amount of pain. So this idea kinda confused me because it felt like a resonable method. I've got a plan to do it and everything, its just quite odd i thought of the most painful way to do it as I always used to try to find the least painful.......anyone else got this? I spose for me its a sort of punishment for taking so long... So I just put this up as an experience, odd as it is. Edit: Well after being banned from the chat for 'encouraging suicide' by asking a member about the reality of his plans, which is encouraging suicide, I'm guessing cus I didnt ignore him nd say 'Hugs!'...chat was the one thing occupying me, and its 3:20am so I may as well do it now. (No this is not a letter, no matter how you paint it mods/admins) I'm just sharing my experience, and hope if other people that have had it will have better luck then me.