well i didnt die and I didnt go get help, told my husband and he yelled at me and then told me to get the eff up and start moving around. I am still sick today...dizzy and weak, spacey the whole nine yards. Oh well guess he doesn't even care
Sorry to hear this sadangel and that hubby seems to be unsympathetic. I agree with windlepoons that this might be his reaction and his way of trying to help you, even though it is completely the wrong way about it. Can you get yourself checked out at the hospital to make sure there is no long lasting damage??? :hug:
Can you explain your situation sadangel, why you feel driven to kill yourself?
You say you are everything to everyone - you are the supportive one of your family? They offload stress onto you but never take any off you, perhaps?
whenever I am needed by someone I am there. if they need help I am there. Whatever my husband wants I give him. I do everything for them. BUT MY HUSBAND IS AN A$$ AND NEVER LOOKS PAST HIS NEEDS TO MINE. When I need help does he help no of course not no one does, I just buck it up and keep going. My family is so reliant on me that they have stopped asking dad for anything ever!!! I need a nap not gonna happen. I need to lay down I have a headache. not gonna happen. I need HELP NOW nope not gonna happen. He says well you see what it does to the kids. I know but would they rather have a happy healthy mom or one that wants to die all the time. I DONT CARE I AM TIRED OF FIGHTING WITH PEOPLE...I AM DONE....
This may not be feasible, but can you take some time off? Do you or your husband or both of you work?
You need some time to yourself and you need support. You have a right to these things and if you are not getting them then something needs to change but not suicide. Your husband needs to realise he must do his part.
Second of all-- this might sound a bit irresponsible, but if you're that unhappy in your life, then next time maybe you should just get up and leave as opposed to trying to kill yourself.
Killing yourself will be a relief but it will also be a huge colossal waste… it doesn't even sound to me like you're unhappy with yourself it sounds like you're just surrounded by chaos and you feel smothered and trapped.
It's not a nice thing to leave your family behind but if the choice is between suicide and leaving, then you should pick leaving… everyone around you would be affected, but not to the degree that they would be if you killed yourself, and there would still be a chance that you could explain yourself and change things afterwards.
Do you not have anyone who could look after your children for, say, a week or so?