Sweetheart, i know how hard this is for you and i do know because of my 'addiction' if its called that. But i do know what its like to be tempted so badly by something, you found out today.
I've told you what i think about this, and to a degree you agreed with what i said. Agreed with why i said you did it, you know you need to stop, so please get through this. Like i said on the phone earlier i think calling social work like you said you would, would be a great idea right now. Especially as your finding giving this up hard. I was so proud of you when you told me you hadn't took that wine like you intended to when going into the basement. I might not of showing how proud i was but i was pretty fucked up then, but i was really proud because i know you can do this and deep down you do to. So please stick this out.
I reminder of that text i sent earlier, i really mean what i said:
'' I'm here for you throught thick and thin, thorugh good times and bad. I care about you and i might not show that sometimes but that doesn't change whats in my heart. If you need a shoulder to cry on I'm here. I might not be there physically but emotionall I am. I would give you all the happiness in the world, you don't deserve this, no one does. Just remember I'm here any time not matter what. Lifes too short, so make yours happy and healthy while you have the chance. Ypur a very special person, the light you shine affects others in very positive ways. If you wanna help people make that light shine brighter, make your life a happy and healthy one. You only have one life make it an fantastic one. Inspire people, you can do it. You can turn your life around for the better. I believe in you. Viks xxx ''
I meant EVERY word. You can get through this. I believe in you. You know where i am hun.
Love you,
Viks xxx
Can't even last one fuckin day