Apologies for the issue with a bizarre redirect on the site earlier today. There was a large server update and an error in an IP address had the traffic routing wrongly. No hacking or anything nefarious and nothing to worry about. Sorry for any stress/anxiety caused. Very best wishes - SF Admin
Im sorry your having a hard time today, please if your in danger of hurting yourself, seek help.
I would suggest getting up and using that energy to do something, run around the block, go play tennis, clean house, go through closets, something that will get you past the manic into a calmer thinking.