First today I was being too clingy. And now I just got online to find that one of my best friends has been worried and paranoid because I didn't answer his texts. My phone battery has been low today, it was low yesterday and today it went from three bars down to one. By the time I got home I thought it was weird he hadn't texted back but I figured he was having dinner or something. So I left it. And then I fell asleep. And I logged on here and it was like, "Oh, you *are* alive" (except obviously not. But that's what she should have said).
Basically if I had got off my ass and charged my phone last night or even this morning (hell, I didn't leave the house until 1.15, I had plenty of time) it would have been ok! A shining example of my stupidity getting people hurt
Again.
Oh, I don't know. Everything can be going along fine and then suddenly, wham. Something just sets me off. Last night it was my mother. Tomorrow it could be that I don't get out early from my IT test. Why do people even bother? I ramble my ass off, then I start laughing for no reason, and then I hurt them.
I have a big English essay due Monday, and a Psychology online project too which I completely forgot about, despite the fact that I have had practically three full days off uni this week because it's the Reading Week for English and all English department classes have been cancelled. And I've been so happy lately...someone has been making me so happy, and then I go and do things like this, and change in a second.
I don't know why anyone bothers with me. It seems like all I do is hurt people Intentionally or not, that's still not the kind of person I want to be.
Basically if I had got off my ass and charged my phone last night or even this morning (hell, I didn't leave the house until 1.15, I had plenty of time) it would have been ok! A shining example of my stupidity getting people hurt
Again.
Oh, I don't know. Everything can be going along fine and then suddenly, wham. Something just sets me off. Last night it was my mother. Tomorrow it could be that I don't get out early from my IT test. Why do people even bother? I ramble my ass off, then I start laughing for no reason, and then I hurt them.
I have a big English essay due Monday, and a Psychology online project too which I completely forgot about, despite the fact that I have had practically three full days off uni this week because it's the Reading Week for English and all English department classes have been cancelled. And I've been so happy lately...someone has been making me so happy, and then I go and do things like this, and change in a second.
I don't know why anyone bothers with me. It seems like all I do is hurt people Intentionally or not, that's still not the kind of person I want to be.