aaaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by IV2010, Nov 23, 2010.

  1. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I just need to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    FFNFFNFFNFFNFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFFNFF LIFE!!!!!!!

    my sons birthday is coming up...the first one without him....then there's Christmas and just after is the first anniversary of his suicide
    one of my daughters tells me her partner almost killed her and I'm stressed off my brain..

    so where's the "in home' counselor today? she cancelled...
    where's my other therapist this week?
    she sent me to someone else for 'mindfulness' training which seems to be another word for meditation...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    so i've had no-one to talk to about any of this and no support...
    and I'm angry....WTF!!!!!!!
    **** 'em all.
     
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  2. ZombiePringle

    ZombiePringle Forum Buddy and Antiquities Friend

    ROAR!!!! GRRRRRR!!!! I'll scream with you for added effect!
     
  3. KittyGirl

    KittyGirl Well-Known Member

    I will join in as well; but in binary.


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  4. ZombiePringle

    ZombiePringle Forum Buddy and Antiquities Friend

    you added stuff beyond the screaming! Thats freaking lame that your therapist would do that.
     
  5. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Sent you a PM...please let me be there for you...big hugs, J
     
  6. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thanks guys for taking the time to reply..
     
  7. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Aw IV that is the way it always seems to happen when you need someone the most NO ONE is there I am always here if you need to just scream or yell you do it. pm me anytime okay. Anniversaries and holidays are always to worse I hope you can get a hold of therapist and soon call and keep calling until you get them okay. KEEP screaming too it helps. wish i could just be there and hold you i know just how much pain your in and i wish it would go away Please try to have a friend or anyone come stay with you okay so you are distracted on those days that are the hardest
     
  8. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    :hug:
     
  9. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thank you all
    violet-there are no friends.they disappeared after the funeral and I'm so angry at both the therapists I'm not going near them at this point...
    family-well you know the story there..
    I'm so tired of trying..I know all the advice, (hypocrite that I am) I'm not following it anymore...
    just gonna see what happens
    at this point I'm done..
     
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    your done oh hang on okay dam those dam professionals not being there when you need them the most. I hope you can cry you can scream yell and i hope you can just let it all out IV YOu call those therapist and you call and call and you get the help you deserve okay you do that please i think you are one of the reasons i am still here I see your strength but i know you are wearing thin. With your daughter as well. YOur grandaughter needs you okay just as mine needs me so please hang on i will be here anytime IV pm me okay I hope you reach out for help i mean it okay reach out for help for you call crisis hospital whatever but you get help be strong that way get help for you.
    YOu deserve to be helped don't let them not give it to you when you need them the most. take care of YOU my friend and only you now.
     
  11. sunrise

    sunrise Member

    well i was doubled booked when I went (therapist), so i said i will come back another day and I let the guy have the booking. but me been me, it made me feel better cos i had given the guy my slot, (i am strange) they once give me someone else's prescription but i sneaked it back to the girl on the reception to save her getting in trouble, I advertised a PC for sale when they come to pick it up, I gave them it.. I think I am trying to buy love..

    sorry for hogging this thread
     
  12. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    my weekly counselor actually came to the house to see if I was ok.....she's never been here before and i felt like a naughty child when I saw her...(.because I wasn't answering the phone..)
    she was very concerned and I'm glad she made the effort...
    I know it's her job and her 'duty of care' but it did help me feel slightly better.
     
  13. sunrise

    sunrise Member

    I do that a lot leave the phone off, I turn it off every night, I have a million and one things going on in my head when I lay down I become anxious hate it, meds help
     
  14. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    Sending positive vibes to Vivi! :):hugtackles: