i'm scared right now. I have this intense feeling. Very bad anxiety. I am losing my mind I don't know whats real any more. i have to kill myself i cant live like this, im not able to support my self. I live off other people like a leech.This is hell, i gotta escape. It's so dark, cold, dirty, hopeless. All i do all day is sit on my fat ass use the computer and eat. No one really has the god damn answers. If they did the world wouldn't be so shit right now. Fucking people all they want to do is make money, Look at al these fake fucking preachers, psychics, mediums, supernaturalists, ufoologists. Theyre all the same as far as I can tell. Is there peace in death,we will see, I have nothign to lose.