i need to talk with someone i feel terrible i don´t know where to start, i´ve been hurting myself like i used to do before new year´s eve. my arms are full of scars again and i need to do something big now, i´m so scared about killing myself by an accident but i feel like i should, i don´t know what else to do i want to do it but i know my boyfriend will be touched by it, because he told me he feels sad when i do it, and it´s making me feel guilty everytime i do it, and i´m hiding my scars from him too now, i feel alone again and i wish to cut deep and a lot but if i do it i can´t hide the scars and he will be so dissapointed of me.