should i abandon searching and reaching out for support in the real world? i don't anyone in real life, I feel i should give up on it. May i should grow up and plan to live or plan to die. Get over myself, solve my own problems and then be courageous to do it. I am not a person who will convince the "helping people in the real world" that my insides are in knots and is screaming out, please act to act now. There are no blood test to prove anything. We are the one who has to say how it is. Nothing to measure only our words.