I'm starting to worry because I think I'm finally getting to my breaking point. Up until now I've been able to think more rationally and pull myself back by thinking about my brother and my parents, the only people in my day to day life who care about me (supposedly). I'm out of motivation and I feel like crap most of the time either because I feel depressed, feel guilty about feeling depressed or feel wracked with anxiety. Not the sort of emotions I need while I go into my second year of A levels, the next few years will pretty much dictate how my life goes with uni applications and exams and all this crap I'm expected to do, and be happy about it!!! I would honestly rather die than live out the next few years without any kind of meaning in life and the urge to end it is growing ever more tempting. Today I tried (again) to tell my parents how I've been feeling but they just laughed and suggested that I was thinking too much. My last source of any motivation and it's running out. What am I supposed to do?