This last year has been pretty rough for me. Long story short I'm 30yo male. Was well off till about a year ago, I was well on my way to retirement before I was going to be 35. Family issues, mainly with my mom, came up and well I lost everything in a matter of weeks trying to help her out. She refinanced her home and was playing with commodities and currency exchange so she incurred a lot of losses. So money has been a huge issue amongst other things. My dad passed away a few months ago, my mother is seeking pyschiatric help. They've been divorced for over 20 years his death didn't phase her. What happened to her financially pretty much made her lose her grasp on reality. And to top it off I'm going through a bad break up for the last 7 weeks. Was dumped right around x-mas and bf moved in with his gf. That didn't help out at all. Everything just kindof hit me all of a sudden. I mean really whats the point. I feel horribly lonely, trapped and like there is no way out. Sometimes I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up. Last time I felt anything like this was when I as 17 and coming to terms with my sexuality, but nothing like what I'm feeling now. I really do feel like I would be better off dead, at least I would be resting and not dealing with all this stuff. I just dont know where else go to express my feeings. Thanks for reading this.