What is the point of living when there is nothing at all to look forward to? I don't enjoy anything. I have been deeply depressed for a very long time and I don't think it will ever go away. I have been alone for a long time. I don't have friends to do things with, or parties to go to on the weekends. I am so jealous of people that enjoy their lives. I do everything alone, and I don't enjoy anything. There just isn't anything to look forward to at all. I have zero hope. All it's going to be is 50+ more years of this. I can't change it. I am defeated and I just want to close my eyes and fade into oblivion.