I have to last the next two weeks without self harm. I HAVE to. I've set my goal for that. My family is coming to visit me in Tokyo for Christmas (and let me tell you, I have mixed and apprehensive, uneasy feelings about having to spend so much time close to them - being away has been a relief), and I can't afford to have such prominent scars. I know they'll see and they'll question me, they'll be angry, they'll make me go home. I don't know if all my scars will heal enough in two weeks, but I have to try. No new ones. I can just hack and slash myself up the day they leave, but I will NOT let myself do anything before they get here. Think I can do it? >.< Wish me luck.