Abuse is coming back to haunt me again!

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by farandaway, Sep 18, 2011.

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  1. farandaway

    farandaway Member

    been a while since I last posted...
    been so busy with things lately.
    because ive been so busy I started abusing alcohol, prescription meds, and otc meds...again
    I felt like I needed to bring myself down from the day. Lately I've been so stressed out that my suicidal feelings/thoughts have been coming back. To keep my mind from racing I'd go take a shot of something, or a pill, or a swig of some nyquil
    Just took some of the latter. I'm really disappointed in myself, I'd been off and away from all this for almost a year! I wouldn't say that I was completely sober, I like to go out with my friends and drink socially (just one drink, then it was plain coke for the rest of the night).
    I thought I was stronger than this nonsense. I remember the withdrawals and how awful those were, but I can't stop myself.
    Working full time, going to school full time, and trying to fulfill my social obligations have caught up with me so I've turned back to my old enemies.
    I hate harming my body like this!
  2. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    sorry to hear that this is happening again.

    how were you able to get mostly sober the last time?

    is there any way you can lower your stress level?

    school and work full time sounds like too much for anyone
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