This isn't really abuse. I'm 15 years old. I lost my virginity around 6 months ago, to my boyfriend of the same age. He wanted desperatly to lose his virginity before his 15th birthday. He pushed to do this before his 15th birthday. I didn't really want to do it, but I did consent. One time it hurt, so I told him to stop and he told me to shut up... I still to this day am not sure if he was joking or not. Other sexual things before that he would say that I didn't love him if I wouldn't do them. He'd make me feel guilty for not doing them, but he never forced me into anything. Is this abuse? I mean, I know lots of people have been through so much worse stuff, and I feel guilty knowing that i'm making a fuss about something that I consented to in the first place, but I feel horrible for what I did. Thanks to anyone who replies.