At 14/15 I had sex with several men in their 30's and 40's on many occasions, most who I met on a teenage chatroom. The main one saying he was my boyfriend. He was very keen on me being in school uniform and very pleased with himself for having sexual intercourse before I turned 15 and still 14. I wanted them to spend time with me but they only pushed for the sex. I am still struggling to get over it as a 20year woman. I experience flashbacks and have borderline personality disorder. I feel guiltily for experiencing flashbacks and my mind telling me I'm a disgusting insult to anyone who was truly been abused. I am really struggling to believe it abuse made worse recently by my CPN calling it 'bad choices' I want to know other people's honest thoughts on whether they think this was sexual abuse or whether they agree with my view (and possibly my cpn's) that I was old enough to know what I was doing. As a extra treatment I am having pyscodinamic psychotherapy, which in opening up has become really hard. I have found my CPN's words so hurtful. I really need different people honest views and reassurance.