There's times where I abuse pills. In the past I used to abuse pills all the time and most of my check went over to buying all kinds of pills. My favorite were opiates and I used to smoke them off of tin foil. Nobody in my family knew about this and I tell them sometimes about it and my mother looks at me as if I'm trying to get attention or something. When she did this, I abused drugs even more and I used to pass out in the break room at Walmart and sometimes I would clock out and leave work just to go get high. Anytime someone texted me and they had drugs, I made sure I saved up a lot of money to get them. Once my friend drove to a back alley and I got out of the car and bought a bunch of pills. Once he gave them to me, I flashed a flashlight on them to make sure they were legit and weren't fake. I made sure that they weren't stomped on and I knew how to tell by looking at them. Sometimes pills were laced with something and kids would end up in a Coma. One time a pill was laced with acid and he told me this right upfront. Now I battle my addiction everyday but I continue to have a lot of dope dreams of me smoking pills and whenever I wake up I can smell "marshmallow's" which happened anytime I smoked Roxies. That smell continues to haunt me. I did this from all the abuse I've went through, from being bullied and cause I honestly didn't think anyone cared. I just wanted to numb everything. It got to a point where I would start feeling horrible once I got high and I even started crying so I started upping the dose. I've been clean now and now I battle with severe depression.