I am 63 years old and disabled, my husband has always been abusive but since he retired two months ago he has got so much worse. He makes horrible comments about me and seems to think I am not disabled but just need to take more exercise. He seems to get pleasure from seeing me struggle while he just sits on his backside and doesn't lift a finger to help. He belittles me in front of my friends and family I can't leave as the last time I tried that he threatened to get a gun and shoot me. I just feel that death would be a happy release, the only way I will ever get peace from him.