I just need a peaceful way out. I want to take my last breath on a mountainside somewhere, propped against a tree watching the sunset. Waiting for the life to drain out of me while I drift away into a a blissful sleep. Or some other romantic shit like that. It's not so much driven by fear or sadness... Although I am always hurting. I just feel ready. I think I've kind of accepted it. I just wish I had a dignified way to do it. I'm sure you guys can all relate. You've all been wonderful by the way.