I know there are people who survived an attempt and felt a sense of relief that they survived. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I was angry when I woke up. It is the worst feeling. I thought I had a fail proof plan. I didn't talk to anyone for a week. When I finally accepted that I failed, I became more depressed. My doctor told me that people who attempted suicide in the past are likely to try again. After two attempts, I still don't know what is wrong with me.