I'll bet you've gone through this. For the past three days, I've had on-again/off-again discomfort that feels like heartburn (right in the middle of the chest-feels like stomach acid) and today it was accompanied by a myiad of little aches and pains all over my body - in the neck, the back, the sides, the legs - you name it. I felt like crying at work and finally decided I had to go home around noontime. I feel like crap.
I haven't been a good boy lately with my diet so I'm going to go on the wagon again and eat healthier. Ever since my birthday I've been a bit lax with my diet (although thankfully I haven't put on any weight). The problem is that my job gives me stress, my lonliness gives me stress, my probelms give me stress and now these pains are giving me stress. It's a vicious cycle. It's so hard for me to relax. I'm going on a relaxing vacation in a month, but I can't wait that long for the pains to go away. I'll be seeing my therapist tomorrow for the first time in three weeks so maybe that should help. I just wish I could relax somehow. Whenever I try, I think about the things I should be doing, writing, trying to get an agent, trying to find better work, etc. And all the pains come back. I don't want to have a drink because, although that would calm me down, it would create more acid in my stomach. I just wish I could really turn my brain off for a while (six hours at night is useless). I just wish I could relax.
I haven't been a good boy lately with my diet so I'm going to go on the wagon again and eat healthier. Ever since my birthday I've been a bit lax with my diet (although thankfully I haven't put on any weight). The problem is that my job gives me stress, my lonliness gives me stress, my probelms give me stress and now these pains are giving me stress. It's a vicious cycle. It's so hard for me to relax. I'm going on a relaxing vacation in a month, but I can't wait that long for the pains to go away. I'll be seeing my therapist tomorrow for the first time in three weeks so maybe that should help. I just wish I could relax somehow. Whenever I try, I think about the things I should be doing, writing, trying to get an agent, trying to find better work, etc. And all the pains come back. I don't want to have a drink because, although that would calm me down, it would create more acid in my stomach. I just wish I could really turn my brain off for a while (six hours at night is useless). I just wish I could relax.