It's likely that this has been posted before, but from the things I have been reading it has occured to me that many are in the same boat or have been as I am now. It has been more than a year since I had fairly severe depression. It has cost me more than a year out of college and I can't seem to get myself fully on track. After explaining to my doctor at that time I had suicidal thoughts I was prescribed an anti-depressant and took some time off school. A couple of events occurred that brought me back to the place I was then, however I do my best and keep a brave face and act like nothing is wrong/bothering me. None of my friends are aware and my family, I think, believes that everything is ok again. I don't want to let them down, but my work has suffered mightily and I don't want people to look at me differently and/or be treated with kid gloves. I can't keep up this charade, I'll flunk out and who knows what else. I'm not typically one to do something drastic as a cry for help. What the hell do I do? I'm sleeping all day, barely eating, I'm a shell of myself. I miss the way I was. I've been thinking about doing something serious though I felt I should at least hear some of you out first.