Has anyone felt any solace in being sad? I mean, it always hurts when you' re feeling depressed, but sometimes i feel like i have to be sad. I' ve been a hell of a pessimist for as long as i can remember myself and certainly throughout teenage years, and i' ve been having suicidal thoughts at the very same time. Now my life ain' t that bad really, apart from the fact that i can' t approach girls and i get stressed over foolish matters. But things are going ok really...I should be able to deal with it. Yet, seems like being depressed is like a second nature to me, it's something i know exactly what it is and something that i feel part of me, so that i feel i' m betraying myself when i' m not sad. Plus, although still having suicidal thoughts, they re no longer because i' m unhappy or experiencing so much pain. Suicidal thoughts usually come when i m bored or demotivated or feeling that i can t become who i wanted to be. Anyhow, i' m probably a spoiled kid who can keep it together and enjoy the good things of life. I haven' t posted here for over 2 yrs, mostly because i was doing relatively well. I'd like to know however if there' s anyone else who feels the same way, meaning having an addiction on depression.