i don't know if anybody else has this issue but i seem to get a joy out of cutting myself, although this joy doesn't last long because when people question what happened i have to lie. well 2 weeks ago i relapsed again but this time i went to far and had to get stitches in my arm. i lied about what happened but the doctor was smart enough to figure out i was lying. i haven't told my parents that this has started again...i don't think i could ever tell them though. is there any other way to let out my anger/frustration? this lifestyle is not healthy and i know i need to stop but i don't know how. this has been going on for 9 years and keeps getting worse.