After reading what Auri wrote, I probably don't have much else to say.
Maybe that trying to find "the same" or to feel "as happy" as before is a very troublesome endeavour, because it will never happen. I had a blissful year with a women, and tried to look for it, and it only led to frustration and dissapointment.
Instead I will tell you a bit about me, to show you that other ways to see relations are possible.
There are two persons at the moment with which I am very intimate. And from the very start, I've been honest. I am free and they are free.
They accepted it gladly. We are friends, we talk about our hardships and about our dreams. When we meet we also have sex, in the same way we would go out for a walk, or cook together. It's just an activity we choose to do together. The important thing is, our relation is not defined by sex, even if sex does happen sometimes.
There are many ways to love, to experience, to bond. As confusing as it may be, I think you explored a few ways to have relationships, and the one in question here is the sexual only type. I do believe that to have a healthy mind and a healthy social life, you need to find a balance. Maybe you will find it liberating to be fully honest with others. At least I did.
This was just another take on relations, you do whatever you want with this.
And I wish you good fortune with your difficult endeavor of recovery.
Maybe that trying to find "the same" or to feel "as happy" as before is a very troublesome endeavour, because it will never happen. I had a blissful year with a women, and tried to look for it, and it only led to frustration and dissapointment.
Instead I will tell you a bit about me, to show you that other ways to see relations are possible.
There are two persons at the moment with which I am very intimate. And from the very start, I've been honest. I am free and they are free.
They accepted it gladly. We are friends, we talk about our hardships and about our dreams. When we meet we also have sex, in the same way we would go out for a walk, or cook together. It's just an activity we choose to do together. The important thing is, our relation is not defined by sex, even if sex does happen sometimes.
There are many ways to love, to experience, to bond. As confusing as it may be, I think you explored a few ways to have relationships, and the one in question here is the sexual only type. I do believe that to have a healthy mind and a healthy social life, you need to find a balance. Maybe you will find it liberating to be fully honest with others. At least I did.
This was just another take on relations, you do whatever you want with this.
And I wish you good fortune with your difficult endeavor of recovery.