Don't you think sometime coming to a suicide forum (be it this one or another) just adds more weight to your problems. Yes yes, i know SF helped and perhaps saved many lives. I won't argue that, but i think it's a double edged sword. Let me explain... If you're heavily implicated within the community, then you probably formed a bond with someone at some point. Truth is, this is the internet and unlike real life, if that person decide to leave the site then you might never see them again. After all, most people here won't divulge their private informations beyond their first name. This is very troublesome because it can leave one person feeling abandoned and sorta betrayed. With the fragile state of mind we're in, this can be the final nail in the coffin. You might think this is just some silly overreaction on my part, and you might be right because i'm deeply paranoid right now. But when i formed that friendship with that person, i became attached. I became dependent, almost to the point of obssession. That person, just like many other close friends i've made here, became the reason why i would want to wake up and do something. And now that i am left without news or any sign of life from that person, i regret to have let myself become yet again a victim of my emotion. I trust easily and worse still, i get attached even more easily. Don't you sometime just regret to have befriend someone just to be let down? I know that person didn't do it on purpose. That's why i blame none other than myself. This kinda made me sit back and say to myself : "hey fuck it, i'm just going to play the i don't care card from now on."