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Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by ~PinkElephants~, May 8, 2008.

  1. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    Fuck you.
    I want to be numb.
    I'm so angry.
    so mad.
    so hurt.
    but damnit...fuck you.
    I want to be numb.
     
  2. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    :hug::hug: Kellz. :sad: I don't have any words that'll make this better for you, but I'm around if you need anything. :hug:
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    :hug: :hug: im here if you need me hun
     
  4. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    You know nothing.
    Don't open your mouth and say shit.
    Especially when you have no clue.
    You say stupid shit without realizing your words.
    You are a bastard.
    You make me sick.
    You thrive off of people's pain.
    You are a bastard.
    I shall become numb.
     
  5. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    I want to destroy myself.
    I want to cut myself into pieces.
    I want my insides to die.
    I don't deserve this shit.
    I am NOT a doormat.
    I don't deserve this shit.
    I don't deserve to be treated this way
    BY ANYONE
     
  6. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    You know my thoughts on this Kells :dry:
    He needs a bloody good kick in the rear!! :mad:

    :hug:
     
  7. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    ENOUGH!!
    STOP YELLING!!
    THIS HOUSE IS A WAR ZONE!!!
    SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    STOP YELLING
    I'm tired of it.
    I'm tired of it.
    I'm tired of it.
    I'm tired of it.

    ITS NOT ABOUT YOU

    It's not like he can help being angry.
    Look at your own daughter.
    Look at your own family.
    You think you are picture perfect.
    Your oldest daughter hates you.
    Don't come at me like I can change things.
    I'M NOT HIS MOTHER!
    I'm only one fuckin' person and I'm broken
     
  8. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    Kells,

    I am here if you need to talk hunny. *huggles* Take good care of yourself,

    Caroline
     
  9. smackh2o

    smackh2o SF Supporter

    :sad:
     
  10. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    She tried hugging me this moring.
    I pushed her away.
    She thought she knew how I felt like we were somehow connected.
    She thought she understood my pain.
    Just because she saw my swollen, puffy cried out eyes.
    I hate her for thinking she knows anything about me.
    She knows nothing yet pretends to hold the world in her hands.
    I fuckin hate her for being her.
     
  11. SuperBo

    SuperBo Well-Known Member

    Kellz :hug: im here for you if you need anything.. im not sure if I can help but i can be a good ear to talk to and listen.. you know where you can fine me :hug:
     
  12. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    Lets set the record straight.
    I'm not a nice person.
    I'm a bitch.
    I am heartless..
    uncaring.
    unkind.
    I don't give a fuck about anyone...
    apparantly.
    I'm selfish.
    I'm greedy.
    I deserve nothing other than pain.
    I deserve to feel my heart ripping from my chest.
    I do NOT deserve love.
    I'm a heartless, C u n t.
     
  13. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Sorry Kelly. :hug:
     
  14. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    Stupid people.
    Stupid.
    Stupid.
    Stupid.
    I'm sick of you.
    I'm sick of it all.
    Don't look at me b/c I'm different, eh?
    Look at me like I'm equal.
    I am you know.
    I'm no different than you, okay?
    So shut up. Shut up.
    It's like you want me to cut.
    Want me to bleed.
    Want me to die.
    FUCK YOU
     
  15. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    Stupid girl.
    Just a stupid girl.
    That's all you are.
    You thought you could make a difference.
    You can't.
    You are nobody.
    You aren't worth the time.
    Nor the effort.
    Your words mean nothing.
    You mean nothing.
    You are so fuckin' naive.
    So stupid for thinking anything you say
    or anything you do matters.
    Idiot.
    Learn to shut up from now on.
    You will always be different.:sad:
     
  16. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    I feel like slicing up my wrists just to show how thoroughly fucked up and not okay I am. I will still continue suffering in my head and not being able to vocalize how i feel but physically I can hurt myself to show you. Physical pain is nice.
     
  17. smackh2o

    smackh2o SF Supporter

    I don't know how to help you realistically Kells. Something I can't make alright for you, but I am always here as an ear. You sound as if your mind is drastically reacting to serious pains. Bitterness and hatred come to the surface making you feel evil but I reckon they are only there because of the anger from the worse feelings your feeling such as no one caring and lonliness?
    Maybe if i'm correct, as a long shot, with my ravings then you have to start to learn to feel less lonely. But is that even true. Could you even believe it. Well, all I can say is i'm here to listen still when you have to release.