I don't know what to do anymore. my thoughts are drowning me. I messed up bad in high school and told some ridiculous lies, ended up getting caught and they all hate me. I've apologized but understandably was not forgiven. It's been two years and I still beat myself up about it. Now on top of this my bestfriend died. I don't know what to do, how to move on and forgive myself. any advice is appreciated... but please don't tell me to try to talk to them because it will NOT help.