Currently, I am in a relationship where I am disrespected and lied to though it is coupled with care and I think love. This I am just recently coming to terms with. I've been avoiding and denying the disrespect and lies for awhile, or at least telling myself they don't matter in the scheme of things because of the love and care and intimacy we have. And also because it's hard to find someone to love me... a person that is diseased, mentally ill, and all around fucked up. But these lies do matter. They really do. I need to end things. I can't keep going on like this, but I can't seem to let go. I rely on this guy so much. I mean, I've made him my future. So how do I conjure the strength to end things between us and to let go? Does anyone have any advice?