Talk of being trapped. Here's the situation. I am physically and mentally ill... each playing a role on the other and vice versa. Few weeks back someone found me passed out in my car and obviously called emergency (to bad). Problem is this today. I am 'told' my father in law needs someone at home with him all of next week on account that he is having surgery on tuesday, day surgery on one eye therefore he will not be able to go out, 'daily', to do grocery etc.... and his wife is let say less then motivated to deal with life and else...... when it come to whatever that is not 'her own needs n liking'. She is ill and recognize her problems yet she is using it when convenient and we all know it. MY problem is that I have fixed apointments with specilists on the 5th and 7th and as we all know it, to get to see them is not easy and waiting period are long..... fortunately the specialists booked me in on short notice as my case requires immediate attention due to fw weeks back story as stated at the beginning of this post. I found out that my person is requested for the whole next week and that I am expected to give up everything for my father in law. The comment was : " Any apointment can be postponed so it is not a problem". How are you to get it through that MY LIVE and HEALTH should come first and not a third party as dear as he can be? Problem is that this third party has been helping us financially in time of need and now used against me when it come to please or be there for them; exp. when one of htem wants time out, got to be ready to take over.... so not always for urgent or necessary needs even though i do go for other reasons as well. To me it seems that inlaws health and welfare and else always pass before mine and always and still getting the best of me.... feeling as if I had less worth then them. I must specify here that passing before me have affected both my physical and mental state so knowing the price I'd pay down the line, and it will be heavy knowing iit first hand, I sure don't understand how I can still be asked to go against my best interests to be 'there' for inlaws as they are there when needed (and convenient I should say if i want to be honest). Stuck between a rock and a wall right? Anyone has that feeling? I am holding up not to get through with my planning day out but today sure is not helping me in not giving in. My main reason to postpone an inevitable outcome is that specialists assure me they can still help me somehow yet cant cure me, but already a start if there is a chance to have a decent life style. How would you go about it? I've tried for years to get this straighen out yet failed to get it through someone's mind..... and today is a drop too many. HELPPPPPPPPPP who comes first? I am not a 'me myself and I' but there is a limit or am all that messed up mentally? As time passes since I firts posted this I am growing in axiety and soon will need meds to calm down or end up in crisis.......... can anyone advize me please??????