It kinda pains me to talk about this, cause I have been in a really descent mood today, but here it goes. I am sure some may know i am epileptic, you see I got this problem. On account of that it is next to impossible for me to get a job, so day by day is always the damn same thing, get up watch tv, eat, read, myspace, xbox 360 and sleep. Its getting tiring. At one time I actually had abit of hope, I was going through vocational rehabilitation to get into school, but after they read my medical records, they told me cause my seizures have not been active, they cannot help me. So hee I am back to square one, the only time I have to get my mind off of all this is on the weekends with my friends. I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions to get through this, around it...oh yeah I preffer not to lie like my mom keeps insisting. Also, for some time now I have been talking to someone on myspace, I know many think..I may be wasting my time or I need to watch myself. but I am SOO damn tired of being alone, this is the next thing i hate about myself, other then being jobless. But things seem to be going good, right now I just have to wonder if I should let her go cause in all honesty I doubt I will see her in person, and I don't want to hurt or disappoint her in the long run, cause hs eis starting to mean alot to me, she is the one person who is there for me, even though at times its hard for me get myelf to count on others, its a process I am going through... so any help would greatly be appreciated.