I prepared to commit suicide about a year ago. my attempt was discovered, but my parents didn't realize it at first. they thought I was abusing substances of some kind. the next few days were absolutely miserable but I got over it. Im still depressed but I hide it from my family. My sister attempted suicide yesterday and when my dad found out he started crying. this lead to my attempt being brought up again and lead to some uncomfortable conversations. I lied about being happy and not depressed and said whatever I could to get out of it. despite accusing me of substance abuse when I made my attempt, my father made a huge deal about my sister and like I said, started crying. Ive always thought that he favored my sister but never in this big of a way. Ive been miserable these past few days and avoided extended periods of time with my parents to avoid uncomfortable conversations. this situation has just made my hidden depression worse and I have been having suicidal thoughts again. How should I deal with it and/or what action should I take if any? please keep in mind that my parents are fairly clueless about mental health and haven't realized that Im depressed, despite some signs that I thought were obvious in hindsight. I also want to avoid uncomfortable conversations as much as possible. my relationship with my mother is strained due ADHD related reasons that are my fault.